It was the day before my 20th birthday; I was sitting in my New Testament Survey course. My professor spent the whole 50 minutes of class praying over his 200+ students, with discernment and wisdom. Asking the Lord to show us what is stopping us from having a relationship with Him, I began to see what was stopping me. That particular day, the professor was praying the Fruits of the Spirits over us. That is what was stopping me from having a completely embracing, all pursuing relationship with my Creator.
Imagine yourself standing before the Lord while He lists off the Fruits of the Spirit, and you realize you have been exhibiting none of them. Scary, right? No. Not at all. While I learned that I had no fruits to give anymore, I was a branch fallen from the tree of life, I was comforted by the Savior of the World. There is no where else I would want this encounter to occur.
Although, as I stood there, God knew there was hesitancy inside me to trust Him, so he took my hands and reminded me of the beauty I have within Him. I saw the Lord invite me into His house, to sit with Him. As He reached out His hand for mine, I reached for His. But as if I was shocked by electricity in the close proximity of our hands, I was overcome with fear and anxiety. I push this off to be my anxiety over the unknown and of change. God grabbed my hand, reminded me that I had nothing to fear, and guided me into His house to sit with Him.
As we sat there, He began teaching me the Fruits of the Spirit, or maybe more so telling me that I needed to receive them with an open heart; either way, I have embarked on a wonderful journey to regain what I once had- The Fruits of the Spirit.
Going in order, I found it only fitting that I start with Love. I honestly just picked this to start with because it was the first one in the lists of fruits, and that required less thinking on my part(LOL go college!). But the more this new adventure found its home in my mind, I couldn’t help but think, there is a reason for that being the first fruit out of all of them.
Then it hit me. (like a ton of bricks… DUN DUN DUN)
Love is the first fruit because it is the rest of the fruits in one word. If you cannot be love and you cannot show love, there is no way you can be any of the other fruits. Don’t believe me? Let’s look…
“Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” -1 Corinthians 13:4-7-NLT
J O Y – “rejoices whenever the truth wins out” “always hopeful”
P E A C E – “it is not irritable”
P A T I E N C E – “love is patient…” “it does not demand its own way”
K I N D N E S S – “and kind.” “love is not…rude”
G O O D N E S S – “it keeps no record of being wronged”
F A I T H F U L N E S S – “Love never gives up, never loses faith…”
G E N T L E N E S S – “love is not jealous or boastful”
S E L F – C O N T R O L – “does not demand its own way”
Let’s look at another version, too.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” -1 Corinthians 13:4-7-NIV
Is it not amazing that Paul allowed Jesus to speak such wisdom through him that we might have a clear picture of what love truly is?!?! Wow!! In today’s lingo, I’m shook.
Does this make my journey in learning how to accept and inhabit the Fruits of the Spirit any easier? A little. But it is mostly an encouragement that this all comes back to love, which is what our God is– pure love.
I tell you all of this in hopes to encourage you to take some time aside to look into your soul, and truly ask the Lord to show you what you need to grow closer to Him, or maybe what you need to get rid of. I mean face to the Heavens, palms up, full vulnerability before your God.
I kinda am also writing this out so that I have a journey to look back on. 🙂 It’s fun when you walk hand-in-hand with God.
I am still accepting words and scripture from anyone who wants to give it to me for the word “Love”. Just comment on this blog, message me, or text me.
Until next post, Look Up and Keep Going.